She asked me, " Don't you think I am not the right type of girl for you?"
This question has actually popped up inside my mind many many times. Why would I want to go through so much trouble? Why would being christian or not be the biggest boundary?
Deep inside my heart, I really do want to fully understand her, and also the main part of her life is God (i suppose).
Would I be able to share? Is it because I am not a christian and I wouldn't understand God's magnificent?
I don't want to make her mine, since no one belongs to anyone.
I wish one day, she would love me on her own (perhaps with God?), just like how she loves god.
And I also wish, one day, I would love you GOD, just as much as she loves you.
Hence, all the unnecessary jealousy, anger, fear, etc will be disappeared from me.
I do search for perfection, but I don't really know how to achieve it. I am searching for personality perfection as well as perfection on work/sports.
It is difficult to focus on both. I have been tried to reach you every night, I couldn't feel it though.
I don't understand......i want to find out her feelings.
Let me in.