This Blog

I started using this blog due to a promise. But I guess, I tend to get lazy after a while.
I guess this is a diary to me.
Went to church with you, feels different from before, since I havent been in one for a bit.

Needa work.

Hope it will be fine.

Work, Starts tomorrow.

Hope she will have faith in me.

I am tired

.....................................lack of energy to speak

:'(

Less of myself, more of others.

I believe you.

Can't wait to see you in 7days.

I have left this place for a while....

Will I be able to carry on walking forward....will I?
Please endure....please help me God, lend me your hands.
I will. Follow u.

You are on placement

Hope everything is going well :)

I am sure we will be fine!

Never feel so blessed

Am I just trying to please Sharon and just say these days are blessed,
or
do I actually truly believe these days are blessed by God?
still needa figure out.

Tomorrow is the last day.

I am not afraid.

Day 2

In progress

Leaving for 4 days

Hard times, model making, brochure, plan, elevation.

You will be in my heart, always be there.

Falling a distance from God

Recently, I am slowly losing you again. For some reason, I am not sure what happened.....perhaps, I have broken my promise with you again.
I am truly sorry.

Rain+Footy = sick

I wanted to go to church, but I am afraid.
I wanted to have faith, but I don't have.

I am off track.

Believe and receive?

Have faith?

Don't believe in coincidence?

Shouldn't I be convinced by now?

Why do I still wonder?

How can I believe.......

Take your time

And....slow down.
求甜蜜以前　帶著你慢步

I should mind

If I have faith in her, why would I mind?

Shine Jesus Shine

My love, my fate.

I love, I wait.

321 GO!

唯一

I have never ever love someone that deeply.

I have never ever been that attached.

I have never ever been that addicted.

You are my turning point in my life. Possible from a wide road to a narrow road.

I understand it can be difficult from times, but I will travel the journey with you and God.

Dear God,

I am seeking for you, I felt your presence, I want to experience more of you.

I know you have planned our life, but if you have given us freedom, does that mean we can plan our life ourself? Doing stuff which please you, does it mean do stuff that are good and that we will be happy?

I m not too sure about the answer, but I will find my way to you. 

Someday, with my love one, perhaps.

Thank you.

I didn't forget abt you

I am just experiencing your presence.
<3

321 00:00

=]

Project 5

哥林多前书１３章４－８节

愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒；愛是不自誇，不張狂，

不作害羞的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡，

不喜歡不義，只喜歡真理；

凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。

Thanks

This is a gift. :)

Break

final crit is over =]

我代你哭

歌手：鄭中基作曲：鄭中基填詞：林夕編曲：陳達偉

寧願擔心　亦期望你　多找幾個情人 
別這麼愛奉獻　但求自己快樂要緊 
曾經一起　未留住你　都清楚你為人 
越傷心你越會興奮 

＊還未答謝你　曾付出的跟你沒法比 
　寧願這福氣　來日全部回贈你 
　如果那個他不愛護你　准我代你哭 
　因你受罪是多麼滿足 
　離開了你　都可以代你歡笑代你哭 
　若痛恨誰讓我代你痛＊ 

如得不到　甜言蜜語　得到知己好過 
若果這個是我　盡情地傾訴像最初 
誰管當初　是誰做錯　將悲傷交給我 
為感激你曾太愛我 

REPEAT＊ 

就算離別後我亦會痛

Last project

I remembered, we were chatting through webcam the whole night.
You were by my side, supporting me.

Thank you.

This time, I guess I have got God on my side supporting me.
I need power and support....

I love you

No matter what happens.

Shouldn't have this feeling

Where has my faith gone?
Why do I get jealous?
Was that jealousy or what? It is confusing, it is weird.
Why do I like to escape from fear, pain?

.........
stop 逃避......

Eco Building

I don't know how to control my love.
I hope you can understand, I have been trying very hard to befriend with you.

I am very happy to see you yesterday.

Is she the right one?

She asked me, " Don't you think I am not the right type of girl for you?"

This question has actually popped up inside my mind many many times. Why would I want to go through so much trouble? Why would being christian or not be the biggest boundary?

Deep inside my heart, I really do want to fully understand her, and also the main part of her life is God (i suppose).

Would I be able to share? Is it because I am not a christian and I wouldn't understand God's magnificent?
I don't want to make her mine, since no one belongs to anyone.

I wish one day, she would love me on her own (perhaps with God?), just like how she loves god.
And I also wish, one day, I would love you GOD, just as much as she loves you.
Hence, all the unnecessary jealousy, anger, fear, etc will be disappeared from me.

I do search for perfection, but I don't really know how to achieve it. I am searching for personality perfection as well as perfection on work/sports.
It is difficult to focus on both. I have been tried to reach you every night, I couldn't feel it though.

I don't understand......i want to find out her feelings.
Let me in.

不要驚動愛情

歌手：鄭秀文
作曲：歐陽業俊
填詞：高皓正編曲：Johnny Yim

很想輕撫你　所以避開你 
寧願用距離　去令你好奇 
迴避過眼神　先偷偷喘氣 
吩咐手臂　放在原地 
傳聞浪漫太快　愛戀都走得快 
才會　 遲遲未步向你　說一世愛護你 

情太過洶湧像深海　而我卻會忍耐 
但求來日你醒過來 
這份情像翅膀打開 
還沒有相擁別意外　神教會我等待 
待情流像細水　才去承諾你 
拿一生兌換愛 

很心急擁抱　所以在禱告 
求甜蜜以前　帶著你慢步 
遊歷過旅途　等一天終老 
生老病死　一起細數 
原來慢慢靠近　更珍惜這一吻 
而我 停留是為了你　要給予你護蔭 

情太過洶湧像深海　而我卻會忍耐 
但求來日你醒過來 
這份情像翅膀打開 
還沒有相擁別意外　神教會我等待 
待情流像細水　才去承諾你 
拿一生兌換愛 

能為愛戀學習按奈　情信寄進心內 
但求能學會倚靠神 
愛被馴服過更精采 
連地老天荒亦不更改　時間永遠等待 
等你情願那天　才去承諾你 
無止境那份愛 
我用沈默叫醒愛情　你用期待做你反應 
繼續行近直至開始愛

Boundaries and control

Guilt is probably one of the hardest feeling to endure.
I wouldn't want you to suffer in that confusion and guilt.

Lets try our hardest to control the feelings.
Good thing will happen in the end.

this sounds quite right i suppose.

Galatians 5:13-25

		弟 兄 們 、 你 們 蒙 召 、 是 要 得 自 由 ． 只 是 不 可 將 你 們 的 自 由 當 作 放 縱 情 慾 的 機 會 ． 總 要 用 愛 心 互 相 服 事 。
		因 為 全 律 法 都 包 在 愛 人 如 己 這 一 句 話 之 內 了 。
		你 們 要 謹 慎 ． 若 相 咬 相 吞 、 只 怕 要 彼 此 消 滅 了 。
		我 說 、 你 們 當 順 著 聖 靈 而 行 、 就 不 放 縱 肉 體 的 情 慾 了 。
		因 為 情 慾 和 聖 靈 相 爭 、 聖 靈 和 情 慾 相 爭 ． 這 兩 個 是 彼 此 相 敵 、 使 你 們 不 能 作 所 願 意 作 的 。
		但 你 們 若 被 聖 靈 引 導 、 就 不 在 律 法 以 下 。
		情 慾 的 事 、 都 是 顯 而 易 見 的 ． 就 如 姦 淫 、 污 穢 、 邪 蕩 、
		拜 偶 像 、 邪 術 、 仇 恨 、 爭 競 、 忌 恨 、 惱 怒 、 結 黨 、 紛 爭 、 異 端 、
		嫉 妒 、  醉 酒 、 荒 宴 等 類 、 我 從 前 告 訴 你 們 、 現 在 又 告 訴 你 們 、 行 這 樣 事 的 人 、 必 不 能 承 受 　 神 的 國
		聖 靈 所 結 的 果 子 、 就 是 仁 愛 、 喜 樂 、 和 平 、 忍 耐 、 恩 慈 、 良 善 、 信 實 、
		溫 柔 、 節 制 ． 這 樣 的 事 、 沒 有 律 法 禁 止 。
		凡 屬 基 督 耶 穌 的 人 、 是 已 經 把 肉 體 、 連 肉 體 的 邪 情 私 慾 、 同 釘 在 十 字 架 上 了 。
		我 們 若 是 靠 聖 靈 得 生 、 就 當 靠 聖 靈 行 事 。
		不 要 貪 圖 虛 名 、 彼 此 惹 氣 、 互 相 嫉 妒 。 p.s. need to keep reminding myself 不要驚動愛情 I am glad that you kind of expressed your feelings a bit. the 情信寄進心內 bit and etc.

Seriously...

Why am I such a douche bag.
I am always doing stuff which is contradicting my thoughts.
All I want is you to be happy and so on. But all I did was just making you sad and angry.

Why am I so selfish?
I need to control my temper better. I used to be good at this. What's going on?

Never ever, ever, ever, hurt her again Romeo.

All passed

Thanks Lord :)

我不會信?

不要依賴please...

remember what you have learnt in lesson 2?

Wish you all the best for tomorrow's interview.

Lesson 2

若要在與異性交往中能夠快樂

若要能夠選中你所想要的那種關係

你就必須沒有那種關係也能夠快樂

A diary, a blogger

Metal and glass

Grid, discipline.

Beams and columns

3000 x 3000

Once again

Once again, I asked myself...
Is this a coincident?

信 － 就是所望之事的實底，是未見之事的確據 (stolen from lotso)

Even though, I don't really understand that sentence, but I am guessing it means

Faith- means believing in what you haven't seen? Haha, hope I got it right.
(update:  Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see)

As you have said, "It" is not a coincidence.
I am kind of convinced that it is not one, but deep in my heart, I still want to prove it.

But after all, it is not possible to see the things I wish to see.
I have to experience, perhaps holding your hands, God.
Lead me to your door, lead me to your heart, lead me to your kingdom.


Thank you so much for leading me, you have always been there for me too.
I am finding my way.
My way to a change.

Lesson 1

只要有欺騙    就沒有關係存在

A relationship doesn't exist when there is lie.

I got a feeling

That it is gonna be a good night every night.

Because... of you.

Burn...

I need to burn...
burn my passion...
burn my energy ...

Just BURN!

Joy? Happiness? from???

: )
back from london

原諒我

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受
他比我適合
愛放了手
我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　
換妳過更好的生活

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那时我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受
他比我適合

愛放了手
我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我 nono
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　
換妳過更好的生活

愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我
必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留
我怕說不出口 喔~
原諒我
沒有解釋太多
心痛
別無所求
徹底忘了我
愛原來有捨得

我難過
我才懂

寂寞不痛

作詞：姚若龍 作曲：李榮浩

你皮衣忘了帶走
那是我們旅行的時候
淋著大雪 手暖手去買的

什麼都總會舊的
多麼苦澀無奈的心得
卻沒選擇

體諒地相信你只是愛累了
絕不是有別的人替代我了
連自己都想問我為什麼
只抱抱你就放手像好好的
其實心 瓦解斑駁

寂寞不痛 痛在念舊
越小的事越多的感受
時間像笨小偷把幸福打破
留下了碎片讓人難過

寂寞不痛 痛在做夢
幻想當你自由膩了以後
會來激動吻我用愛悔過
做醒不來的夢

什麼都總會舊的
多麼苦澀無奈的心得
卻沒選擇

體諒地相信你只是愛累了
絕不是有別的人替代我了
連自己都想問我為什麼
只抱抱你就放手像好好的
其實心 瓦解斑駁

寂寞不痛 痛在念舊
越小的事越多的感受
時間像笨小偷把幸福打破
留下了碎片讓人難過

寂寞不痛 痛在做夢
幻想當你自由膩了以後
會來激動吻我用愛悔過
做醒不來的夢

寂寞不痛 痛在念舊
越小的事越多的感受
時間像笨小偷把幸福打破
留下了碎片讓人難過

寂寞不痛 痛在做夢
幻想當你自由膩了以後
會來激動吻我用愛悔過
做醒不來的夢

Do I have the right?

Do I have the right to be jealous?
Do I have the right to guess around?
Do I have the right to "control" you?
Do I have the right to have feelings for you?
Since I have once done something wrong, do I have the right?

Who can answer my question...or perhaps, could answer my questions.

Why am I so pathetic?

 get a life f f s.

What is this feeling? What is going on inside me?
What the hell is happening...?

How can I end this? Should I end this?
CAN I end this?

Times up, and give up, Romeo.

Should I, should I or should I

One said you never truly understand another person unless you have been through the same situation as the other person.
I realised and noticed what is 因果now... it really does exist.

Lets put it this way,  我有今日...

umm...

Should I stop caring about her?
God, I am tired.

........

FEAR leads to Anger.
ANGER leads to Hate.
HATE leads to .....more hate.

London-ers feature Bath-ers

小明上倫敦    探朋友樂同遊

Thursday till Saturday

Quality

Miss you Charterhouse mates.

Take good care of yourself

As above.

滿足

Able to see you today is the greatest gift.
Thanks :)

Just realised I have bought the wrong drink...
should be Hazelnut Hot CHOCOLATE instead of latte.

I don't know what you feel being around me, but no one in the whole
can replace the feeling you gave me, the moment we shared.
You are just too special to forget in a short while.

Wish you all the best with your placement.

Fate

.................

Nahh

Made up my mind.

Prefer being sober.

Done

I am done with everything.

YEAH!

Stop

Revision+hea day.

Detail design exam

Enough said.



p.s. I forgot to listen to my "heart sound" this morning and God's voice.

DD+SS

It's my detail design tomorrow, good luck to myself.

Last night, I touched on the sensitive topic again.
Dislike myself....
Don't want to hurt anyone.
argh....

I am not an expert on making decisions,
but Dear Father, would you please lend me your wisdom,
so that I can make the right move.

Can be too lazy...get serious man!

I have been slacking off for too long, haven't really concentrated on my work.
Need to focus and just nail the exams coming up.

Goodnight.

Back!

My hope is back.
My target is back.

I won't turn to darkness,
please
lead me to brightness, the right path.

Goodbye my lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blind and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
(x2)

That feeling

 1/20/2011 7:15:05 AM Romeo Sharon arch life, enough said
 1/20/2011 7:20:26 AM Romeo Sharon well, did u have some dinner ah earlier?
 1/20/2011 7:20:31 AM Romeo Sharon btw, jus wanna ask
 1/20/2011 7:20:44 AM Romeo Sharon ummm...
 1/20/2011 7:21:14 AM Romeo Sharon we wouldnt webcam chat from now on?
 1/20/2011 7:24:37 AM Sharon Romeo better not
 1/20/2011 7:24:52 AM Sharon Romeo well, not trying to sound rude
 1/20/2011 7:28:07 AM Romeo Sharon ok, i guess it wud be better this way.


That stabs the bottom of my heart.
It aches, it hurts,
it will heal one day.


Still not sure about, what do I actually want.
Are you the right one? Was my first instinct wrong?
I have never had that feeling when I first saw a girl, the feeling of you are the
ONE.
I will just wait and see. 
BUT
you are not giving me another chance, or a chance to find out,
I suppose you are certain that I am not the right guy, I guess?
Ha...
back to work.

Better than I thought

Exam went pretty successful yesterday.


Current favourite:

A-Lin 給我一個理由忘記

First exam

I was hoping to get a reply from you, but you didn't show any response.

But, anyways...

My first Uni exam.

Just do it.

:)

After chatting with you for 2:56:03,(using your minutes :P)
I feel better.
Not sure why, but I am just :)ier
Thank you <3

Can't stop thinking about you.

I need to move on, like I used to do.

I need to stop thinking about you, like I have never met you before.

I need to concentrate on my work, like I used to do.

I need to be strong, like I used to be.



After reading your blogger,
mine seems so immature and full of crap.
I cant express myself in words.
Ha....
I am trying too hard to avoid you at the moment, sometimes, it just
hurts when I can't speak to you.

I hope one day, you will actually accept me again.

You look fine :-)

Seems that you are happy being on your own,
back to your old self. I guess you like that way more, don't you.

Seems that someone is going for you,
I am not always right, hope this time I am not right.

Seems that you want to forget about me badly,
I will help you by not bothering you, if that helps.

Seems that...I still miss you.

I can feel that Lord is helping me, hope Lord is doing the same to you.
I can feel my strength once again, which was lost a while ago.

I will let go, and grow up.
Watch me.

Feeling better

Somehow, I am feeling better.
I have put you behind my mind, and just focus on what I should do for now....
which is to revise my exams.

世界發生什麼事,我也會等妳。縱使...你已經說......等­不了

GROW UP!

Please grow up.
Please be strong.
Please...give me the strength to strike through the exams and this year.


I was strong, I am losing myself.
Where did you go?
Come back to me, Romeo Chang.

I have never been so down.
Work hard...
Good luck...

Stay strong.
Be tough.
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I have just been thinking, you might prefer a stronger Romeo.
I need to be tough, be more caring, and most importantly, grow up and learn to love.

When I can achieve these, perhaps, you might change your mind?
Perhaps, you will give me a second chance?
Perhaps, I have moved on?
Perhaps, we are not in contact.
Perhaps, you are in love with another guy?
Perhaps, I have given up waiting?
Perhaps, I will still be waiting for you to come back.

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Damn...

My heart aches when I speak to you.
I hope time will heal my wounds ,and perhaps, your wounds as well.

I just can't concentrate nowadays.

ROMEO...STAY STRONG U STUPID!

God bless you

I will pray for you.
Hope your work will be done on time.
Hope you will manage to meet all deadlines.

I have prayed for you.

Wait...

I will wait, till you trust me again.
I will wait, till you believe me again.
I will wait, till you see my change.
I will wait, till you love me again.
I will wait, this is not a promise, this is a fact.
It is my turn to wait for you.

痛

我唔打英文啦, 因為我打中文仲快過打英文....

哩幾日, 我的心只是充滿了痛 , 酸 , 澀 , 苦....
要明白我心情的東西, 應該只是粥, 粉 , 麵 , 飯 能夠做到.

我很痛, 是因為我人生有了污點, 一生也緊著我的一點黑暗.
我後悔, 但是有些東西後悔也是太遲了. 為了一刻的快感, 就做出一樣
害人又害己的事, 真的太愚蠢吧!

我是從來未試過這種痛的, 心彷彿被刮了出來一樣,
心裡那種空虛,絕望和內疚交集, 使我變得脆弱.
我不要變成那樣, 我要堅強, 就像妳一樣堅強!

我一直在想, 在想, 在想, 我需要的到底是怎樣的人?
我是否只愛自己?
還是,我仍愛你嗎?

I guess I don't know my own strength

What I have been seeking for the past few days is a change.
Not a physical change, but mentally and spiritually.

A change, that could possibly adjust my way of living; my way of interacting with others: but more importantly,
my way of LOVING others.

The reason for seeking this change desperately, is perhaps I have finally realised,  what I have been doing for the past years was just not right.